A facebook post about body image and considered acceptance, rather than assessment and judgement, planted the seed for today’s thoughts.
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Struggling with my thoughts
Realising that just perhaps my challenge at the moment
Is just keeping them neutral
away from all the negative past-present frustrations
Just staying away from what aggravates & frustrates me,
Knowing that isn’t constructive and only makes it worse
Just learning it’s ok to be me
Whoever that is at the moment
No labels
no criticism
no preconceptions
no expectations.
Just some neutrality
amidst the chaos of negativity.
It’s scary to think
that I haven’t really travelled very far
internally
the last few years,
But I can observe those thoughts
knowing my attitude is a reflection of my health
which is so low at the moment,
And know right now
in even a small way
that is progress.
Every day
that I find the strength
to be neutral
instead of crying and hurting,
is learning that it’s okay
to be who I am today
to accept whatever manifests
to believe I can cope.
New strength
in minute amounts
but something new!
To maybe
eventually
break some old habits
of negativity bias.