The conversation.

I start
and you respond
equally
same length
same energy

I’ve stopped
because
you haven’t added anything
or delved
or questioned
or offered insight

I opened up,
stretched my emotional boundaries
to kickstart communication
let you know how I feel
and received none of that back

Results
disappoint
So I shut down again
Why
make
any
effort
at all?

Irrational?

Within a depressed state of mind
My thoughts are irrational
The only words I can abide by
are that I cannot trust my own judgement.

Simple tiredness
Repeated and compounded
Also triggers a depressed state
wherein thoughts and judgement
are too skewed to be trusted.

Run down, weary, worn out
By-products of extended illness
By-products of extended stress
Same triggers
Same end result.

How to trust myself?
How do I make decisions to improve my life?
When I never feel the clarity