Denying feelings
that scare me
because
they are painful
and scream out for life to be different –
Change
as scary as the feelings
Everything terrifying
immobilising
draining –
Fight
Pushing against these emotions
these beliefs
They are as real as the skin of my hands
that ball into fists
ready to –
Come to blows
Beat myself into submission
“Stop doing that!”
Useless retort.
This is what comes of feeling
don’t do it again
Please just leave me alone
I don’t have the strength
to endure much more
And I’d rather die alone
than in pain
Very deep, but yet again is beautiful. Hugs Paula xx
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Thankyou. These feelings/thoughts are painful and I don’t understand any of it yet. I am just getting by as best I can
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I’m sending you lots of love. Stay strong. xxx
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Such a vivid poem. Great work, keep on writing, I think your work is great and you are very talented!
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Very kind, thankyou for saying so.
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