Some Days, Some Hope.

I’m so weary
I just want to close my eyes and sleep
To wake up to a different time,
A different place,
Where all these worries have passed
Where I can start afresh and choose my own way
Instead of reacting and intervening in a messy existence
Many days, that is my only hope.

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Somewhen.

Somewhen
Focussing on moving
On stepping forwards
Each and every day
Desperate
To not slip backwards,
Became running
Away from the pain
Away from myself,
And I got so lost
Before I realised
What was happening.
And now
I don’t know whether
To keep running blindly? or
to STOP
Scared of where I ended up
Scared of what I’m running from
Scared of all the imagined demons
Lost
Alone
Uncertain
Unsure of everything
Life – exists no more
Survival is all I know.

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[ I pressed these words, and then found this from 10 days ago ]