Never Go To Bed In Anger.

Never go to bed in anger
Advice I keep hearing
But how do I avoid that
When my days keep on ending
With silent frustration
That I hold in
That I won’t express
Because you just get upset
When I talk about my feelings
What I’m missing
What I want
And we never seem to get to
What works
And what is good
Precious little positivity
Much experience negativity
No balance counteraction
Good memories a tiny fraction
Of the whole frustrating journey
Feel inadequate unworthy

Can’t speak
You’re asleep

In the morning keep the silence
Don’t upset you in defiance
Shutting down I need to cope
Stumble down the slippery slope
Where this goes will not be fine
While we cannot make the time
To understand and to connect
Each day fully, no neglect
And the energy required
Leaves me exhausted and so tired
There’s no focus on achieving
No efforts made nor love receiving
Feel ashamed that I can’t nurture
So it scars me like a torture
Thoughts crash down and are deceiving
Nothing left worth to believe in

Never go to bed in anger?
I do that nearly every night.

The King bed

I reach out
Across the cold ocean of sheets
Searching
For some contact
For your touch
That means so much
Even though you still sleep

When we make contact
And you respond
Towards me
The love is felt
That means so much
Even though you still sleep

When you kick back
And keep me at bay
Drive me away
The rejection is felt
That means so much
Even though you still sleep

Lying lost in bed
Wonder where to spread
As I rest this head
Longing for your touch
That means so much
Even though you still sleep