And Today was Nothing.

This is part of how I feel today, after writing about my Dad and yesterday’s work outside. This is the struggle I have felt uncomfortable with most of the day. And this upsets me when I can’t work out how to deal with it. I just want to sleep the day away, and I feel useless to myself and others. These common days of uncommon unpleasantness.

The emotional pain
The upsetting and tears
Don’t want to push them away
Need to feel
and acknowledge them
But it becomes too much
Overwhelming
Sanity tearing apart
Dry sobbing
Self-protection kicks in
Focus on this breath
and the next…
Life becomes survivable
for another moment

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