I didn’t.

I need to put up my walls
Shut down emotional contact
and protect myself
Because all this pain
is breaking into my sleep
as well as my waking life
And I’m becoming a zombie
exhausted and numb to any feeling.
We are not connecting
despite my efforts
Conversations are aggravation
to both of us.
And she expects me
to function normally
When I clearly struggle
to function in any way at all.


3 thoughts on “I didn’t.

  1. What a beautiful and painful poem. This shows how extremelly hard it is for partners and friends to understand you, when you have a mental issue such as depression or panic or other. I totally get your frustration. But please don’t shut down. Try to explain to her.


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