Finding happiness.

Through all the difficulties
health nightmares
relationship struggles
I see a word

Happiness

Many times before
has it jumped up in front of me
glared at me
and dared me to be
So many ways to get there
have I read and heard

And now, just maybe
after all these years
It is creeping up on me
When I least expected to experience it
As my old life drops away
and a simpler me cries out

There is finally some space for it
Etched into my being
By the pain that I thought
was driving it away